The human perception of the passing of time is a strange thing. I’m sitting here reflecting on the past year, and I can recall sitting at the computer on January 1, 2008 knocking out a blog like it happened only weeks ago, yet so much has happened in these 12 months - to me, to my loved ones, to the rest of the world - that it seems almost inconceivable that it all this could have occured within just one year. I don’t need to tell you about the worldwide events which have impacted on my life as you’ll have followed them in the news; closer to home, the biggest event of 2008 was probably Iestyn winning a BAFTA. As for my own experiences, there’s nothing big to report, but I can honestly say I’m far happier today than I was at the end of 2007, and I look back on the past year with fond memories rather than sorrow.
But onwards to 2009, which has the potential to be an even better year for me than 2008. Changes are afoot.
As in previous years, I’ve come to the end of December with a few ideas and plans which may as well be officially named as my new year resolutions, though as usual they have already begun well ahead of January 1. In 2009, these are some of the things I’m aiming to do (in no particular order):
Expand my reading
I’ve realised that I read almost exclusively sci-fi / dystopian / cyber-punk / apocalypse fiction (as mentioned in my previous blog). I can’t help myself, it’s not that I’m not interested in other genres, but just that I enjoy these types of story so much that I usually find myself with several titles lined up for reading with no room to squeeze anything else in between.
So, for the whole of this year, I’m taking control over the books I allow myself to read. The above genres are definitely off limits if the book is relatively new (ie. younger than me) and can not be described as a classic; however, some older works are acceptable if they’re recognised as classics even outside their genre, such as Jekyll and Hyde or Journey to the Centre of the Earth, but even then each book will be judged on whether it is really going to opening my mind to something new or if I’m just picking it up to satisfy a craving. I’m avoiding authors I’m already familiar with (eg. Iain Banks). And I’m seeking recommendations where I can for books, both modern and classic, to add to my ‘must read’ list (feel free to contribute your own recommendations by adding a comment!). I’ve made a start over Christmas reading Tess of the D’Urbervilles, and I have to say I really enjoyed it.
Give my time to charity
I haven’t yet decided how to go about this one, so a little research is required between now and returning to work. I already make a few regular monetary donations to different charities through direct debits, and I’m always willing to dig deep to sponsor fund-raising friends or assist a major crisis. But if you earn a regular salary, giving money is very easy to do and I don’t feel that I’m doing enough, given that I’m fortunate enough to be healthy and have a roof over my head, regular meals, a social life, etc. So I’m going to look into voluntary work that could be fitted in around my work hours, or maybe get involved with some sponsored events. I’ll report more on this when I’ve found a project to get involved with.
Gain better control over my allergies
I’ve suffered with excema and hayfever all my life. I stopped seeing the doctor about either of them ten years ago when I reached 16 and lost my entitlement to free prescriptions - the same creams, sprays and drops which my GP recommended year after year have always been cheap enough over the counter, and I’ve since added antihistamine capsules to the mix.
However, I’m noticing differences between the complaints I have now and those I had as a child, and think I need to take a new approach to controlling/treating them. The hayfever-like symptoms of itching watery eyes, sensitivity to light, fits of sneezing, itchiness and swelling on the roof of my mouth, a blocked up nose and tickly feeling in my lungs no longer appear exclusively in the summer, but come intermittently at all times of year with no obvious cause of aggravation. The dry itchy patches of skin around my eyes and mouth also occur all year round again with no clear cause, and cause more discomfort to me now than they ever did when I was younger, though I seem to have grown out of the rash-like eczema which used to appear every summer on the insides of my arms, thighs, and on the backs of my knees.
The most frustrating thing for me is not knowing for certain what causes any of my symptoms. At least when I was younger I could be sure that they would disappear when summer came to an end. I’m almost certain that if I go to my doctor with nothing but a list of symptoms, he’ll not be able to do anything for me beyond recommend the medicines I already use, and at best will suggest changes to my diet, cosmetics and environment which could possibly remove the typical aggravators of eczema and allergies. Frankly I don’t want to take up a GP’s time for something which I would probably have more success at diagnosing myself at home if I put a little more effort into it. Therefore my mission for this year is to perform controlled experiments and try and find a pattern to my symptoms, so that I can either completely remove the things which are causing the allergic reactions, or at the very least find a more effective treatment specifically tailored to my problem.
Step one is identifying the common causes of allergic reactions. So far I’ve come up with the following possibilities: pollen; over-sensitivity to chemicals used in cosmetics; washing powder; pets; dust (or dust mites); mould/mildew spores; foods (eg. dairy, certain additives); changes in the weather. Next I need to methodically cut out all contact with items on this list (one at a time) and note whether my symptoms are noticeably reduced or stop altogether. I’ve already started with the easiest one, which is a complete upheaval of my cosmetics. I already only wear make-up on very rare occasions so have no trouble in going make-up free for a month or so, I’ve swapped my bubble bath, shampoo, conditioner and soap for products which are free of perfume and unnecessary additives. I’m not using shaving foam (thankfully it’s the winter so my legs are permanently covered and I’m not going to shock anyone by leaving them au naturel), completely avoiding any hair products (such has hairspray) which might bring chemical residues close to my face, and I’m taking care when I use deodorant sprays to keep it away from my face as much as possible. At the same time, instead of switching between several different treatments my eczema, I’m sticking with a very small application of the product which seems to ease the symptoms the most, so if I have a sudden flare-up or improvement I can be sure it’s not due to a change in the treatment.
After a week I’ve noticed absolutely no difference, though I’ll keep this trial going for a few more weeks before moving on to something else. Some of these possible factors are going to be very difficult to control and test properly, and some I sincerely doubt are responsible (such as my pets - I’ve had the symptoms all my life and noticed no specific change to them when I brought animals into my home for the first time less than two years ago; my outbreaks show no correlation to the time spent in close proximity to my rabbits).
Following these trials if I haven’t come up with any conclusive evidence I’ll make arrangements to be tested professionally by my GP, probably via a skin prick allergy test.
If I’m still drawing a blank, or if I discover that the cause is environmental and can not be removed (such as the weather), I’ll follow up with controlled trials for different treatments for my ‘hayfever’ symptoms (I’ve been using Benadryl almost exclusively so I’d like to see how different antihistamines fare) and for my skin (I’m currently using Oilatum Junior cream which is marketed for treating eczema in babies, but I’ve also tried various cheap moisturisers and dry skin/eczema creams, hydrocortisone 1%, E45, Savlon, Sudocrem, after-sun lotions, aqueous creams, Vaseline, baby oil, Carmex lip-balm, to name just a few). The skin is particularly hard to treat as its condition changes vastly; it can be dry and lacking elasticity, very itchy, flaking, red and inflamed, lumpy, cracked and weeping, bleeding/scabbed over or infected. Regular use of the same product often leads to a new outbreak of uncomfortable symptoms, and the only useful thing that I’ve discovered recently is that using as little as possible of a product is often better than completely smothering the skin (as with the Oilatum cream, which I think creates an airtight barrier if slapped on too thickly, and I wonder if the skin sweats underneath causing increased irritation).